Let me eat cake

I am frequently anxious about many things and lately my devotionals and bible verses have been targeting that weakness. All the standard verses such as "Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me" John 14:1 (NLT) have been popping up recently.

Yesterday, we went to Palo Alto's main street to do some shopping and walking around. I was hungry, no shock there, and I had been craving chocolate cake all morning. I figured better to buy one slice of cake than make a whole cake that I eat in a weekend. But as I ordered my sandwich, I decided no, no cake right now. I got my order to go, because hubbie was on a mission to leave.

We got to our car and hungering for a bite I open the container and low and behold, you guessed it, next to my sandwich is a piece of chocolate cake! I couldn't believe it. Did the guy behind the counter think i was cute, did they mess up an order? I thought, God, are you telling me something. I believe the latter. God sometimes speaks in large events, situations or like people; a pastor's sermon. But yesterday, God spoke to me through a piece of chocolate cake, letting me know that he provides all my needs and even some of my wants. He loves me and is taking care of me.

Normal Grocery Day

My height of excitement for today was a trip to the grocery store. There, 3 different people were magnetized by Raffi. I cleaned dishes and made dinner. So all in all quite successful. It is weird when I look back at my day, I didn't really talk to any adult. (not counting doug or my mom.) I could see how many days like that in a row will make one nutty. So next week, it is back to Mama-Baby Yoga and a stroller hike tomorrow. Yeh.

I feel a little whiny today and tired. Raffi is still waking up 4-5 times a night and last night he stayed up for over an hour during one stint. So I feel a little draggy tonight. Of course, instead of being in bed, I'm on the internet. Smart.

Seeing

Raffi had an eye doctor appointment today. (It has been six months since his last one.) He did pretty well through it all. Fortunately, there were no "clockwork orange" eye openers used, much to my relief. Raffi's eyes are straight, he uses both eyes equally and doesn't need glasses. The doc also said he was very handsome. So in all, it was good news. Because of his preemie status he will get his eyes checked out yearly.

As you can tell from the picture posted yesterday, Raffi is sitting up really well. He started sitting up while Grandma was here and has been getting stronger ever since. He is always on the watch for something to grab. He especially likes black and silver shining things; the keyboard, the camera, the phone, etc... I put a colorful toy just within his grasp and No, he wants shining object that is not made for him!

Happy Blah Day.

Today the refrigerator was fixed, unfortunately the part that needed replacing was only covered for a year. The just don't make things like they used to.

I felt that quiet happy confident semi-productive mom feeling today. It appears at random and strange times. I'm not necessarily a miserable wreck the other times, but tired is the word that comes to mind. I took some more pics of my boy sitting up today. I once had a shirt that said "Here comes trouble." In my case in was an underestimation.

Is your refrigerator running?

Thats good, because ours isn't. It is lightly jogging. The bottom drawers seem to be working but everything else is room temp or lightly cool. This refrig strike occurred on Saturday after we noticed the freezer wasn't frozen! Oh life. So the new ranch dressing I purchased is gone, alone with a bunch of other stuff. I was a little frustrated and angry at first. In a bit, I went to God and acknowledged that it is just food and it is just a Frig. And they are easily replaced. Hopefully, the repairman will fix it on Tuesday. And then a Grocery store run.

Prayer request: My excema has come back with a vengeance. My fingers are sore from the infected areas and I have small spots of "irritated" skin over my body. I feel discouraged after the last time it cleared up. I don't want to keep using the topical steroids, because it will become impervious and the side effects. So please pray that my body will heal and stay healed.

Faithfulness

God is faithful. My mother and I are reading The Women's Devotional Guide to the Bible by Jean Syswerda, which goes through main passages/topics of the bible in a weekly format. During the stories of Moses and God's deliverance of the Israeli people, I commented how it truly shows God's faithfulness as did the week before that. My mom wisely replied that the whole bible is a testament to God's faithfulness. So true. It made me think about what a basic concept the bible is. Of course there is so much more. I tell this as back story to the next story I'm going to relate.

God is faithful. I have to repeat it again and again. Because even though I know it to be true, I forget. Even though I have hundreds of examples in the bible and thousands of non-fiction and personal stories out in the world today and in the past to remind me. I forget and focus on my problems and I worry. But God is truly amazing, He forgives my flippancy and reminds and blesses me.

Just a couple of days ago, I was reviewing our finances and our bills. We have been spending more than we are taking in, some things necessary, some unnecessary. The change to one income has been challenging. But anyways. So here I am whining to my husband about our bills and how we will have to dip into our savings again. (I also must put a disclaimer that I know that we are well to do financially and have so much that so many others do not, but as my husband says, I'm just a miser.) Than the next day, our taxes were completed by our tax people and we are getting back a large amount. Thank you tax deduction Raffi! woo hoo! So I stopped and thanked the Lord. Thank You for providing for our family and thank You for so reminding me that You are faithful.

Cold Update 2008

Raphael is sitting up with minimal assistance. I/Hubbie will usually give him a semi-circle buffer of parental soft flesh to fall into. When he is placed on his stomach he is kicking his legs and you can see it in his eyes that he wants to crawl, he just can't quite figure it out.

Info already on the carepage:
Raphael appears to be healing well and I hope he will completely symptom free by the end of this week. He had a fever last Thursday night, which prompted a trip to the doctor's office. He was prognosed with a cold, but hadn't infected his ears or chest. So that was good news. The doc said to bring him back in if he got worse. Thankfully over the weekend he slowly got better. He is only coughing a couple times a day now.

My mom, the grandma, came for a visit this past weekend and everyone had a great time, even with Raffi's cold. It was nice for me to get a break with the extra hands. I even got some time alone! I drove around and wandered around Best Buy. Wasn't too exciting, but it was still nice. Next time I hope to plan ahead and get my hair cut.